the royle family

right smart, that is. bloody hell.

I think yoda got his sentence structure from the british.

rhubarb cupcakes are the devil

I made rhubarb cupcakes last night. They are delicious. They are also the devil.

I also made a new fun sandwich for dinner tonight: pesto eggs with fresh red peppers on garlic bread. Not so healthy, but damn tasty.

So I came up with a few things to do sometime in my life: learn how to make shoes, visit every continent. have something published. start my own business with Jeff.  Now to get started on at least one of those…

things to do

Plan next trip :

Seattle | Chile | Antartica | Australia | Seattle

Write a book. Send it out.

How the hell did I become so uncool? Not even in the sense of “your so uncool you are cool.” Just really, horribly, uncool.

Ok. So, I will look up something someone did once a week, then do it. Within reason, of course. Damn I am uncool.

my job is stupid.

we have recently been working through the Carl Sagan Cosmos series created in the late 1970’s and early 1980’s. In watching it, I feel very tiny. I also feel that my job is really as insignificant as I had thought it was.

I can’t really explain why, but I feel as though tomorrow would be a better place if I were to just not to go work. No calling in, no showing up for a bit then leaving. Just not showing up. I would be fired, most likely, and frankly, I think that is why I want to do it. I have no urge to remotely care about the place anymore. Which is extremely problematic.

I think there should be a day dedicated to “National Don’t Go To Work and Don’t Call In Sick.” Imagine if the entire world stopped working, and we had to go outside, and interact with each other, or nature. No economy worries, no stress. Perhaps you would like to catch up on sleep. Or that book you have been delaying on.

It isn’t that I am a hippie. It is that I am not under the same delusion that work solves everything, and that there is only one great thing in life. I much prefer to know and understand that there are infinite interesting bits out there. I intend to experience as many of them as possible.

leonard

I went to see Leonard Cohen this week. He made me happy.

It was a previously elusive emotion, one that always seemed merely at the tip of my fingertips – or tongue – or mind. Never quite reaching it.

Yet, as I watched the man who is the epitome of depression on stage, I was immediately overcome by the pure joy in his life. He skips. He smiles – honestly and from deep within.  He respects everything surrounding him. He is unbelievably modest. His quiet power comes from somewhere that I wish I knew the source of.

As I mentioned this to Jeff, he said, “He is in touch with his emotions. It isn’t that he is happy. It isn’t that he is sad. It’s that he is both.”

To my Leonard, who showed it to me, and my Jeff who explained it to me, thank you my friends. 🙂

First time I ever dropped a record

Today is Easter Sunday. Instead of going to a mass this morning (the first time ever missing it) we watched Carl Sagan’s Cosmos, about the origins of life. It struck me that, while simplified, it is our nature to go one way or the other on the interconnected elements of life. Why, for example, must we only believe in evolution or Adam and Eve? I understand the concepts behind both, and was part of the generation (probably the only one) who experienced the transition between the two teachings in my younger years. I learned both. I accept both.

I do believe in evolution. It is almost ridiculous if you don’t. I also believe that there is an awesome force of an omniscient being. It isn’t a human, it isn’t a man. It is a force, an energy. Yes, Star Wars took the first step in bringing this into our Americanized popular culture, but it has been a part of ancient wisdom for years. Prophets exist, good people exist. Unexplainable phenomenons exist. But if we only accept one or the other, we lose out on the importance of life.

I grew up as a Catholic, and I chose not to attend church this morning. I have a massive amount of guilt built up from that. However, I also recognize that God, Jesus, prophets, whoever you may or may not believe in, exist outside of the four walls of tradition. Tradition is a wonderful piece, that keeps cultures alive, and communities together. But there are windows in those walls. I chose to use them more frequently as my stability than the walls. It is a constant dichotomy I fight with everyday. Current culture demands walls.

I am not a scientist, religious person, hippy, or corporate cog. I am all of those things put together. I don’t fit in anywhere, because I refuse to go against my very nature of integrated life.

We will see where it takes me. Hopefully, it will be fun along the way.

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I don’t want to go to work on Monday.  Fact of the matter, I really don’t think that I want to go back to the office at all. I just have no desire to keep up appearances there anymore. Last week was supposed to be fun. I was miserable, simply due to the fact that when I didn’t have anyone to monitor me, so I ended up wishing I were anywhere but that place.

Yet, I am currently going through a period in my life in which I recognize that all I worry about is my professional future. I am not on the track that I want to be moving on, but I also do not know where I want to be. I think it is merely that I understand that I have multiple professional personalities, and need to exercise those frequently. I will never be happy doing just one thing. So instead of trying to find something that I will be happy doing for the rest of my life, I will instead observe and report moments of interest to me. That is what this is for. It may just be a quote some days, others may be musings. Keep posted.

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